May 27, 2011
A few weeks ago, we found a field of bluebonnets near our home. A massive field of blue bonnets, about the size of ten football fields. In Texas, the Bluebonnet is the state flower. If you have children, it's sort of required that you take pictures of your offspring in such a field. And so we did, happily.
I know I'm biased, but I happen to think this little girl is the most precious, beautiful little girl EVER.
I loved watching her run through the flowers, squatting down to pick a few (Illegal in Texas! Don't tell!), and holding them up to her nose to SNIFF! SNIFF!
I never knew that one tiny little human could bring so much joy and love and FEELING into my life. I hear people say: "I don't remember my life before I had kids." That's not true for me. I remember my life well. I remember flying without a squirmy toddler on my lap, I remember running to the grocery store or to meet up with friends without worrying about nap schedules or whether I'd need to get a babysitter. I remember working an entire day without one single interruption, if I so chose. I remember movie marathons with Roger, just because we could. Life before having a child was a lot more convenient. But it was also a lot less full - I just didn't realize it at the time.
I can remember my life before I had a child, but I don't want to remember my life before Rayah. She is, magnificently, curiously, awesomely, our entire world right now.