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The Psychology of Me

November 04, 2008

(This is a series in Weird Things About Me. Part One is here. Part Two is here. Part Three is here. Part Four is here.)

I have two pairs of sneakers, and I dislike both of them. The first are covered in paint – and therefore have been deemed my grubby shoes for things like painting and gardening (Okay, honestly, I don't really garden. But if I did, I'd wear these shoes while digging potatoes and planting onions, the things that I imagine all gardeners do.) – and the second are just a tad too small.

I'm not quite sure when my feet began growing again, but my toe is suddenly bumping up against the tip of the shoes every time I wear them. I'm anxious that they're causing my toenails to split (which, they're not splitting, but I must tell you: I am completely obsessed with short toenails. I cannot stand them to be any length, and my stomach turns when I see people whose toenails resemble claws. In fact, right now – just thinking about it – I started to gag).

So I've started looking for a new pair of exercise shoes, and this is the weird thing about me: they're all so white. And I do not like white shoes. Frankly, they're embarrassing. I feel totally self-conscious while wearing them, as if everyone is staring, blinded by all that whiteness. That's why all my exercise shoes are grey. Grey with pink, or grey with orange, or grey with turquoise, but always grey. White shoes are just too…new looking, I guess. Which brings up another weird thing about me entirely.

I think I have a problem with new things. If I buy new clothes, I cannot wear them for at least one week. (Unless, of course, it was an emergency purchase and is required to be worn that day.) I don't know when I started doing this, but let me tell you: it was a real problem in junior high and high school, specifically at the beginning of a school year and at Christmas.

I never wanted to be that person who wore all their new clothes at once, and then had nothing new after a week. And so I would spread mine out: the first day I would wear nothing new. The second day I would wear a new sweater with my broken-in jeans. The third day I would wear a previously worn outfit with new shoes. And this would continue for two or three weeks, until everything had been worn once (but none at the same time), as if I was introducing each new piece to my school and my friends, even though probably no one cared. Except me, obviously.

I am the same way about food. I can eat food while sitting in a restaurant with no problem. But if I go to a convenience store to get a drink or a candy bar, or if I go through the fast food drive-thru, I cannot eat the food immediately. I am not that person who tears into their fries while pulling away from the payment window. Instead, I require myself to wait until I am out of eyeshot of the fast food joint (or at least out of the parking lot), and then I can unwrap my burrito, or my burger, or whatever.

Honestly, maybe this is the weirdest thing about me. Does anyone else have any similar behaviors? (Or perhaps admitting the full extent of The Crazy puts me in a category all my own. Either way, you choose.) (Like on Election Day*!)

* Okay, not so much like Election Day, but only because the color of my shoes and my distance from the drive-thru are THAT MUCH MORE IMPORTANT.

Comments

1

First of all, OMFG to the pictures of long toenails! Aren't people afraid they are going to break off. And who the HELL keeps track of them AND COMMENTS on them on a Flickr stream? EWWWWWWWWWW.

Secondly, I like to wear all new things at once...but I can TOTALLY relate to you on the fast food thing. I don't want to seem desperate enough that I have to eat the food there.

My husband, on the other hand, is addicted to new white "tennies" as he calls them. He gets all depressed when he gets a spot or smudge on them. He's in a consistently good mood for the week after he buys a new pair. Weirdo. :)

2

You know I feel a lot more normal after reading this... I HATE new shoes for the same reason. All the newness and attention to my tootsies kinda freaks me out. And I can not stand to hear people clipping their nails/toenails. Makes me want to gag.

3

I hate wearing shorts and capris because of how white my legs are so I can TOTALLY relate to the sneakers thing. LOL
But, honestly, I hate to wear sneakers anyway so maybe that's just an excuse so I don't have to buy them - the sneakers looking too white and new.
Going to concerts, Blake will -make- me wear them and I am seriously mad at him for the night because of it.
"Why can't I wear my flip-flops?"
"Because I don't want to hear you complain when your feet get stomped on."
"Hmph" (and secretly, I'm making an angry face right now just thinking about him making me wear those... things. LOL)


Fast food - I'm the same way. :) I'll only dig into the fries when I'm well on my way back home/work.

However, I LOVE new clothes so I like to wear them all at once and "show em off". haha :)

4

Here's my list

1. I won't eat or drink anything that I can't look at first. Like if somebody tries to give me a bite of something I have to stop them, examine it, then I'll try it.

2. I can't stand anybody to be near my ears. Think Something About Mary.

5

are you sure you didn't write this about ME?! seriously! especially the shoes & clothes...

i LOATHE white tennis shoes

6

I don't like white sneakers because they remind me of Seinfeld and I think they look too '80's.

I like to wear my new clothes, but not all at the same time. I save them for a little, but not as long as you do.

I never eat my fast food as I'm pulling away, and I never drink from the cup or eat anything while at a stop light. I'm scared someone will be looking over at me and see me eating fast food and think "what a pig".

I also don't like to have my music up loud while I'm at a stop light and I don't like to sing loud while at a stop light, in case people hear. Once I start going, though, I turn it back up.

As for gardening - I'm more of a weeder/plant flowers kind of gardener, not a vegetable gardener. At the moment, anyways. One day I would like to have a vegetable garden but for now all I have are flowers, herbs, and weeds.

7

Mine are office supplies. I don't like using new pens or writing in new notebooks or on new stationery/notepads for a long time. Pens have a shorter "breaking in" period than the stationery, which I can actually keep around for years. (As a kid, I had this awesome stationery that I used about two pieces of the whole time, mainly because I really liked it and didn't want to give to other people when I wrote to them.) Of course, if they are plain notebooks or notepads, I have no problem writing on the paper, just if it has some sort of decoration or an interesting feature to it. Most people don't get that, but I'm SAVING it for future "special" use. Or until I'm not as neurotic about it and just need a piece of paper. *laughs* When my parents moved out of my childhood house, I found notebooks from when I was a kid that I never wrote in because I really liked the design on the front and was afraid to use all the paper up.

As much as I realize this doesn't make sense, it doesn't make me write in them any sooner.

I bought new sneakers a few years ago and, like you, I had a hard time finding not-white tennis shoes. I ended up with a pair of white ones with red accents because the arch fit my foot the best, unfortunately, and I have some foot problems where I have to have really good fitting shoes. We were with my in-laws at a tourist attraction thing one very cold fall night just a couple days after I bought the shoes, and a complete stranger actually said, "Wow, those shoes are really bright! You're trying to blind all of us!" I refuse to buy white shoes ever again. Ever.

8

I also have trouble with wearing new clothes. Sometimes this even extends to trying them on (in a case where I said in the store "I'll take it home and try it on there" because I couldn't be bothered to find a dressing room). This is often a problem, as I sometimes miss the return deadlines. As is the case with a sweater I bought a short while ago and only decided yesterday that I didn't like. Who thinks they'll let me return it?

9

ok.... check out New Balance shoes. There is even a New Balance store in HP at the corner of NW Hwy and Preston. Great shoes, tons of selection and NO WHITE (or at least enough grey that you dont even notice the white!!)....
I have a strange issue with new clothes as well..... I really like new things (not just clothes) and rarely get anything new (cause I a miser and all) so dont like to use the new things until I have to and then like them just a little less....
I am getting better as I get OLDER but still.... once my shoes are sccuffed, my shirts misshapen or my socks dingy, I really no longer care for them as much!

10

hmm we all have a little OCD in us.

I can't stand people clipping their fingernails. Grosses me out.

I also can't stand an unorganized place. Dirty dishes, dirty floors or dirty furniture. Gets under my skin.

I'm not so picky when it comes to clothes or shoes. As long as they're not... DIRTY! :)

11

What a great post-- thanks for the white-shoe/new-clothes confession, I was nodding so hard as I read I almost snapped my neck!

I found that the light gray for a sport shoe works great, it's the color of the pavement. Not that I actually USE them, but, ya know, IF/WHEN!

And your commenters are so entertaining too -- seems like everyone read a tiny fragment (all that's left) of my mind!

12

Haha! Rick is the same way about white shoes - he thinks they are dorky. Not me - I rock my white and blue sneakers with pride. :)

13

The crowd I ran with in college would STEP ON your BRAND NEW tennis shoes so they wouldn't be so white. So rude!!

14

And you thought I was crazy!! BTW - this week I have only had Sonic once...

15

Have you ever seen "Along Came Polly?" When Greg was going to the salsa club and Polly told him to wear "comfortable shoes". HA! He is walking down a street in NY wearing shockingly WHITE sneakers and into a salsa club. Priceless. All gawky and awkward with his white sneaks. I think that this is the perfect example of how white sneakers make me feel.

Me? I choose "Spiderman" sneakers, as my husband calls them. I look like I could jump over buildings with these dogs, but instead I am inside punching and kicking my way through Turbo Jam and praying for a membership to the local Y.

But about the fast food?? The smell is too lustful for me. I have to dig into a french fry if there is one inside the bag. And there are ALWAYS some inside the bag...Even if I order a salad. It's the universe's way of laughing at me for doing Turbo Jam.

16

I'm with you on the white shoes. I will wear them, I just prefer they have a little bit of dirt on them so they aren't BLINDING WHITE. :)

17

I am the same way. I never wanted to wear my n new clothes to school all at once either. The whole fast food thing is so me too. If I'm on my way home with my food, there is no way I'm dipping into that bag until I get home.

But the new thing is totally me too. But I tend to treat all my new stuff with care like I'm trying to keep new for as long as possible. My friends make fun of me for this. But new things to me...are special and I want to keep them that way as long as possible. I know it doesn't last forever, but in the beginning I'm at least like that...and it probably goes on for way too long. But that's just the way I am.

18

Oh my gosh, so NOT with you on the clothes! When I was little (keep in mind, I HATED getting dirty, so I rarely did!), I always wore new clothes as quickly as I could. If I was going to be in a different place where I was unlikely to run into anyone I'd seen the day before, I'd even wear them for the second day. (They were still clean!)

I AM with you, though, on the white tennis shoes. I just hate how quickly they can get dirty. I always go for gray shoes too! My running shoes I got in September, though, have quite a bit of white on them. Somehow, though, it was OK. (That, and K bought them for me on our anniversary, which automatically gives them coolness points!)

I'm the same as Jess, who commented above about paper. I hardly ever use pretty paper because I don't want to waste it (ie, run out of it!). I just like to look at it, which really doesn't make much sense. What's funny is that I was randomly thinking about this the other day, and it was the FIRST TIME EVER that it occurred to me that it might be stupid to not use the paper out of fear of using it all up. lol

The moral of the story is that we're all a little crazy. Some of us are just a bit more honest about it than others. :)

19

OMG, I feel so normal now. I have tons of journals, but do not want to write in them as they are 'new'.
When I traded in our van for a convertible car I was so happy, but not comfortable driving it to work as if I did not want to be a show-off.
I never wear new clothes the first day. It sometimes takes weeks before I do.
As a kid when I got some special sweets/candy mailed by my grandmother I would not eat them so I kept them longer or forever until they were stale. My sister is the same way. Why?




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