Chirky

oh friend, i know those feelings oh so well

all i can offer is an ear (and in the case of a quick get-away I have a stash of plane tickets and fake passports) and when needed a gallon of ice cream

I haven't started a blog yet for that very reason. Someone I know will read it. I guess I could start one and not tell anyone,that way I could write about who and what I want.

Yes, it easier to be a man. But I have no frame of reference, but by simple observation I can see it's easier.

And yes, it's probably your meds. You're having an easier time than I did.

~Jef

That's why I have an Alias! :)

And how does Roger feel about you being a man?

Ben: Shhh. He doesn't know yet.

Susan: you should start a blog (free and simple to use on www.blogger.com) and do what "Ben" does. Ben is TOTALLY not his real name. And "Sydney" isn't his wife's name.

But, if I ever meet them in real life, I could NEVER call them Gunther and Gertrude, which are their real names. They'll always be Ben and Syd to me.

Maybe you could be...Goddess in Houston. (!)

Ugh... I hate feeling the way you are feeling right now - or at least the way I have interpreted that you are feeling right now... becuase I don't *actually* know how you are feeling right now. (Did that make sense?)

I call it blah. It's different that bored, and not quite blue.

I hate feeing blah.

You are TOTALLY suffering from a very SERIOUS condition known as ennui.

The only reason I know that word is that it is an example used in english theory to muse about the possibility that speakers of English can't feel French feeling-words. Like ennui. French people can feel it, but English people can't. Or something like that. Because we don't know that word and there is no English equivalent. I don't know, I wasn't really paying attention.

I think for men it is easier because we have X and y chromosomes... and a penis. Yep, not having to sit down when we pee sure comes in handy. Public restrooming is complicated enough without having to drop trou every time you need to go.

Hang in there Jes and think of the positives - like... like... well, I can't think of any right now but I am sure there are some...

Is it because I'm coming off my meds? Is it the stress from work? Is it part of discovering who I am?

Yes, yes, and yes. And so much more. I feel ya, sister. Big hugs and kisses (no tongue, I promise) back atcha!!

And I think you need to come to Portland. 70 and sunny. A little rain then 75 and sunny all weekend long.

Can I travel with you? Because that would be oh so much fun. But I would be signing to you all the time, and you'd probably get tired of that. Because that's all I seem to be doing lately. That or trying to make sure that I'm NOT signing to someone that will look at me like I'm an idiot.

So, yeah, I feel ALMOST the same way.

Ugh, going off those meds are the WORST! I almost had withdrawal from it. I constantly felt like my blood sugar was plummetting and had these wierd pain-like sensations in my head. Along with just feeling...off. All around kinda wierd emotionally. Weaning off of them was such a pain the booty and SO miserable that I vowed to never go on them again. I am NOT against them, but I just don't want to go through all that again. Ill be thinking about yoU!!

Hang in there Jes! I went through a similar mess a little less than a year ago, but I managed through, got a new job that I love, made a beautiful baby, and have learned how to love life so much more! :) Give me a call if you need anything or just need to vent/talk!