Chirky

Roger and I have several friends who are pregnant, or who have just recently
given birth. With the babies that are around us, we have recently been giving
serious thought to having children.

We know that we will not be ready for children for a few years, unless God
decides it is time for bambinos before we do.

Roger and I would also like to get a pet. In particular, we want a dog, because
neither of us really have much affection for cats. You can ask any of my former
roommates for verification of this fact.

Unfortunately, we don't want to get a dog until we are in a house, because we
want our dog to have a yard to play in. And we don't plan to purchase a house,
or have kids, until we are out of debt. This is a vicious cycle.

I fear having children, partly because I'm selfish and partly because I know
that I'm not ready for it yet. I like keeping my nephew because he gives me a
tiny taste of having kids without the full responsibility.

Sometimes, I think that maybe I don't ever want to have kids because I just want
to hang out with my husband for the rest of my life, doing whatever we want to
do. I feel guilty for thinking that, because Roger and I are pretty sure that we
DO want kids. Does anyone else have this thought, or is it just me? I already
know Roger's thoughts�but I'm curious about yours.

Sometimes I wonder whether I'll be able to properly care for my children. I
mean, if I can't keep my plant at work alive, how would my kids survive?

Do you see my conundrum?